Wooohooo…It’s 635am now and I am here blogging. I couldn’t sleep. Feeling stressed. What I have in mind is ‘You do this then do that. Tomorrow you can do this while do that. Very easy.’ I don’t think it is very easy. Of course the whole thing is not that hard but it is time consuming. Need much concerntration to make sure every little thing is done correctly. I think I can’t multitasks. I am mentally very tired. Said is so much easier than done. I am not a robot. People works from 830am to 5pm or from 930am to 6pm but I work from 830am to 7pm or 8pm. I don’t know how to say but I feel as if I want to run away. Every night when I reached home from work, I felt so tired and dinner time was over, I did not have the urge to eat anymore but I just need to force myself to still take at least something.
To be honest, I think the amount of tasks given to me is too much. I can’t take it all by myself. I can’t. I think the problems are mostly because I work alone. I work on the given tasks. I also need to work on the real time or immediate tasks of the day. I can’t concerntrate properly at all. Lots of interruptions. And the dateline is getting nearer yet, mostly depend on me. Nobody to share my burderns.
Have you ever seen or perhaps experienced it yourself that you have got the urge to eat something when you do not really feel hungry? So, you just went to the shop and bought a whole lot of food. When the food arrived, you did not feel like eating anymore but you just forced yourself to finished them all. By the time the last bit of food entered your mouth, you felt like as if you want to puke and of course you were bloated. No feeling of satisfaction regarding the food but felt like ‘Wow, what the heck that I was thinking and doing just now?!’ instead. Yeah, very well, very true, that’s ME !
